zero2sixtyin9

So I haven’t written in awhile.  Well, in a long time.  That doesn’t mean I have been discouraged or giving up.  It was just that life was busy, some stuff went down at home, and my weight wasn’t budging an inch.  Totally frustrating and stressful.  But, I took a different approach than I ever would have, and I found myself…surprised.

First let’s start with work.  I know that work is always going to be stressful (it comes with the territory).  I know there won’t always be people I like or get along with.  However, when I started my new job, I was astonished.  The environment is great.  Even on a stressful day, the people there are supportive and it turns out to be a great day.  I have never loved a job the way I love this one.  In fact, it is a huge reason I stay here and am ok with staying here (as opposed to going home).  However, I finally met my match.  There is this one person, who I will not describe at all, who makes my life HELL.  Well, not just me.  A lot of us.  You can never do right.  You always know the shift will be stressful when they are there.  And dealing with all of the crap in the past few weeks that this person has put me (us) through, has really sucked.  But, in a moment of clarity (after being treated like an idiot), I came to a realization.  This person treats me like someone I know (again, no names being mentioned here on the internet.  But if you know me in real life, you may already get this.  Or call me and we’ll chat).  This person is similar to someone in my life who is also condescending, yells a lot, and over the years I have learned to deal with.  And suddenly, amidst all the havoc, I had a moment of clarity and dealt with this person in the same pathetic, fragile way I have to deal with the other person.  And they finally backed off.  At least for now.  But knowing what I have now come to realize has helped me not really give a crap what this person says, does, or thinks.  And justing saying “uh-huh” in a sickeningly sweet tone while walking away quickly (without arguing or so much as responding, which at times is tough because you get sick of being accused/questioned) and leaving them there dumbfounded yet satisfied to wonder what just happened  has been more justifying and satisfying than I could have ever imagined.

So on to the home news.  My mom called.  My dad, being my dad, took the safety off his saw (which is there for a reason kids), and yep, cut half his hand off.  While I did not panic (since I have dealt with this a couple of times as a nurse), knowing he would be fine, I felt horrible that I couldn’t be there.  That’s the tough part of living so far away.  I am getting better with it, but…  Anyway, they were able to clean up most of his fingers pretty good and save the one that was fully amputated, so we’ll see if it actually heals ok and if he can end up keeping it.  And I’m glad my mom’s ok.  I hate when she’s upset and stressed.  I’m going home in 2 weeks to visit to visit family and friends, which I try to do at least once a year, so that should help.

Last, is my weight loss.  Or lack thereof.  I hit a wall at 184-185 and could not budge.  I stayed right on my point range, worked out (well, as much as I could), and still…nothing.  And then, in yet another moment of clarity (and maybe the most responsible, adult thing I could have thought to do), I took myself down another point from 24-23.  Doesn’t sound like a lot, but other WW’s out there will understand.  A point makes a huge difference.  And it just so happens that on the night I decided to this, I was in a particularly starving mood, and everyone at work decided to bring in some delicious, mouth watering food to share.  I thought I was gonna die.  Literally.  But, I prayed for strength, got through the night, and had lost a pound by the morning.  And again and again.  And now I am down to 180 : )  So, the hard work, dedication, and sacrifice definitely paid off.  My goal was to be in the 170’s by the time I go home.  And I just might make it : )

That’s all for now.  I’m on call, so I’ve gotta go get ready *just in case*.  Have a Happy Easter and a great week!