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Another 2 pounds, another 2 pounds…  My weight loss is sooooooooo predictable.  I am craving some spontaneity, like maybe a 6 pound loss this week (lol..yeah right!).  Sounds superb to me!

So I am feeling happy and a little sad all at once today.  Is that possible?  Or just plain crazy?

Duane called and wanted me to pick up sushi and join him for lunch today.  As I was getting ready to go, I decided to do something brave…I have this 1 pair of jeans that I have been wearing FOREVER (because as I grew bigger, I had to buy new clothes to fit me, so I would buy 1 pair of jeans at a time thinking it was only temporary).  Well, those jeans are getting grossly way too big for me (yea!!) so I thought I’d try a different smaller pair, that at one point were wayyyyy too tight (and too disgusting, not to mention uncomfortable) for me to wear in public.  So I put them on and they are falling off my butt! : )  Dieters out there, rejoice with me!  It’s amazing how energetic, healthy, and how much smaller I already am, even after just 17 pounds!  (So that’s the happy part).

As for the sad part, I came home and was looking through pictures of this past Christmas, when my parents were here for a visit.  Every single picture, I look awful.  I remember feeling so extremely exhausted and sick and tired out.  And it all shows in every single picture.  I look like someone who has just let themself go, who just doesn’t care or can’t go on anymore.  It should make me happy that I have made so many positive changes, but I feel a slight sadness for the old me.  I am just so glad I am not like that anymore.  And if anyone out there is feeling that way, I completely understand and am here to talk if you ever need to.  You are not alone.

(Just looking at this picture, I can feel the exhaustion I felt then.  And seriously, look how I let myself go.  This picture is embarrassing, but I am showing it anyway.  I want to show where I started at and how far I’ve come.)

So anyway, those are my two emotions for the day.  Mostly I am happy.  And dancing in my newly falling-off-my-butt jeans!  Woo-hoo!

Back to my lunch story:  While we were eating, the guy who at the Christmas party had commented on Duane looking great and asked me if I considered dieting (when I had been all along), walked in to where we were eating, patted Duane on the back and said, “He is looking so good!”  (Which Duane is…he looks amazing!)  But it was just so funny, I couldn’t even be mad.  A lot of other people notice/comment on my weight loss, but he somehow still thinks I need to start dieting.  Lol.  If he only knew.  I am so damn proud of myself.  The old me would have said something and gotten really upset.  Most women would understand this.  Fortunately, I don’t need other people’s recognition.  Don’t get me wrong, it’s awesome, but inside I know who I am and I know what I am doing.  That’s all that matters.

A few nights ago I had to go on a special assignment for work.  One of the top “people” came with us.  We hadn’t eaten in 10 of our 12 hours and he INSISTED on buying our food.  I knew I needed to eat, but I did NOT want to eat greasy fast food.  He was insistent and pushy and suddenly I knew that if I didn’t eat the food he was buying, it was going to become an issue and may get back to my boss.  No big deal, right?  I had the points for it…hell, I hadn’t eaten all day.  Well…after a cheeseburger and a few hushpuppies, my stomach started to feel a little uneasy. It didn’t even taste as great as I thought it might.  And by the time I got home, I felt downright sick.  And oh, did it last for the past couple of days.  This is so why I don’t eat like that anymore.  I used to feel like that A LOT.  Abdominal pain, nausea, diarrhea….ugh.  Thank goodness I won’t have that type of assignment again.  Hopefully this story will really demonstrate to others why I never feel the need to “cheat” (although when you do WW it’s never really cheating as long as you have the points for it).

On another note, I hit the next lower weight range for WW, so that means giving up 2 more points per day.  So far, it hasn’t been that hard.  I’ll let you know how it works out.  And I am pretty excited…when Duane and I started dieting, we also started getting our finances in order.  We got hit with some pretty big medical bills when we moved here, along with other debts we have, so we have not only resolved to put ourselves through a total body makeover, but also a money makeover as well (we have always been pretty good with money, but we are really tightening the reigns, paying off debt, and planning for our future).  Since we started the diet a little over a month ago, we have paid off over $3800 of debt!!  I am so excited.  And we meet with our financial planner Thursday to roll my 401k over to my new company, make sure we are invested appropriately, and hopefully (finally!) open some Roth IRA’s.  When I called him to set up our appointment, he asked me when I want to retire.  I said, “Um, how about next week?”  Lol…if only!

Here’s to a great week and a goal of losing 8 pounds in the next 3!  : )