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Holy crap, holy crap, it happened.

In less than 30 days, I did it. I reached my first major goal, which was to lose 15 pounds by the New Year. And I so did it. And I can’t believe it. I am so glad that we went into this as a “lifestyle change” as opposed to “diet”. I am so amazed - there is just no temptation. I don’t want to eat a dozen cookies or stop at McDonald’s. I relish in the fact that I can actually walk up our stairs and not get out of breath. And I can be awake all day and not get tired doing nothing. All it took to feel that bad was gaining 45 pounds. I can’t imagine having lived any longer at the weight I was or getting heavier. I am so glad I listened to my body when I did. I mean, what 26 year old do you know gets out of breath walking up a freakin’ flight up stairs? And not a big one at that? How embarrassing. And horrible. I am so so glad I made this change!!! I truly believe this is the best gift I could have given myself.

So yesterday I slept in pretty late missing breakfast. I was hungry when I got up and knew we were going out for sushi later that night, so I wanted to eat ASAP so that I would be hungry for it. I fixed myself lunch and as I sat down I thought to myself, “Wow. This is sooo different. I didn’t even think twice about what I made (well, I counted points, but it’s second nature now) and look how great it is.” The old me, less than a month ago, would have started out with a huge tablespoon plunging nonstop into a jar of peanut butter. And then maybe some jelly. And how about a grilled cheese oozing in butter? And a can of tomato soup made not with water or milk - oh no, that wasn’t good enough - but rather, heavy cream. And pop. At least 2. And something chocolate. I mean, what the hell was I thinking? Total path of destruction. I know these posts may seem cheesy to some, but I am just so astonished at how much denial and horrific self destructive behavior I used to be in and how far I’ve come in so little time. The last time we did this (started WW), I hated every minute of it and couldn’t wait to stop. Now, I can’t imagine life any other way.

P.S. I took a picture of my “new way of eating” (if you click on it below, you can see a bigger version).  I actually was so stuffed by the end, I could barely finish it (but did to get my points). I had a salad with mixed greens, red onion, and red wine salad spritzer. I also had a 2 pieces of white bread (because I love it and have to have what I love) toasted with tuna fish, white onions, and 1 1/2 Tbsp lite mayo. I also finished the rest of the tuna and had 10 green olives, along with a diet pepsi. All for a mere 8 points. And to think this was a huge meal for me. Before, I would have kept eating. And I would have never considered eating a salad with lunch. Now, I don’t even think twice about vegetables at almost every meal. I don’t know what I am more happy about, the 15 pound weight loss, or the way I have established a healthier way of living. Eh, I guess I shouldn’t care….now that I think about it, it’s a win-win situation : )